Life is Full of Confusion

I honestly have no idea where my heart is right now.  The past  couple weeks have been an up and down battle with myself.  I know that I want him in my life.  I want us to be great but I can't see that happening.  I was reminded of how much I worried about him each night and how upset I would make myself.  I just don't think I could handle it again... I feel like I am trying so hard to make things work but he isn't giving back anything.  I have decided to let him decide and take a step back away from the situation.  I want to be with a guy that knows for certain that I am the girl that he wants.  I don't want to be compared to with other girls and I am tired of crying and trying to convince him to be with me.  Maybe things aren't meant to be and maybe he was right, we have changed too much.  


"Realize now that when your heart breaks, you got to fight like hell to make sure your still alive.  Because you are.  And that pain you feel?  That's life.  The confusion and fear? That's there to remind you, that somewhere out there is something better, and that something is worth fighting for."  ~ OTH


I am so grateful to have one of my best friends Kathy Trinh.  She is pretty much the sister I wish I had.  I love her so much.  We like to think that we are twins because I feel like we both understand each other.  She has always been there for me no matter what.  I can depend on her for anything.  I have only known her for about 10 months but it feels like we have known each other for years.  I would not have been able to get past my first year of college if it weren't for her.  She is a reminder that I will always have people who love me and care about me.  She is honest with me but also understanding. Gosh I don't know where I would be without this girl.